In My Next Thirty Years…

My only advice to you these days is live your life! Don’t fear failure, if you’ve never failed you’ve never lived.

I turned 31 a few weeks ago. I know, I had to let it sink in for a while myself. But like the song says “In my next thirty years I’m gonna have some fun…I’m gonna do it better in my next thirty years”!!!! My life is nothing like I planned it when I was younger. I’m not a teacher, I’m a nurse. I don’t have children, I have my Muffin. I haven’t been married all that long and I don’t live on a farm or have horses. Life never goes according to plan, at least not for anyone I’ve ever met! Don’t get me wrong I don’t think this is a bad thing. I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and life is only what we make of the series of events we are dealt.

As I reflect back on my life this far many events stand out. I don’t mean life milestones like high school, university graduations, first love, first heart break, etc. of course like anyone I can recall those well. I’m talking about those life moments that at the time may not seemed like a big deal but 5, 10, 15, 20 years later sneak back into your brain and make you realize things. Moments like a kiss on the beach, a glance goodbye in an airport, a hand picked flower, or a few words mumbled in anger. Simple things, the way wine tasted on the patio in the middle of summer. The sting of regret, the overwhelming clarity of realization. All of these things band together to form who I am today. Who I am today is not who I was a week ago, a year ago, 10 years ago. I’ve realized that everyday lived is another chance to be better, to do better.

I’ve had to make some major life choices recently. I had to face things I didn’t expect to face. I had to make choices regarding my health, love, feelings, etc. The one thing I took away from all of these events was that in actuality things in life are going to happen and sometimes you have no control over them. What you do have control over is your reactions and where you go once the event happens.

I’ve decided to just try to be better. Everyday just try to be a better person, make better choices and to enjoy life.

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