Everything went wrong today that could of went wrong!
Our day was rough. My Dad’s memory/dementia was giving us all hell. Kevin is still really under the weather, I’m still coughing so much I’m physically sore. Important paperwork went missing (thanks dementia). I realized I’m dangerously close to missing a very important deadline. Amazon lost Jacob’s birthday gift. My lunch order was full of chicken not the tofu I ordered. Purdys is having a peanut butter daisy shortage. I could go on.
But I’m not going to dwell on it. Im going to look on the bright side! Today I managed to get out and find Jacob an amazing birthday gift, bought him a huge Pokémon balloon bouquet, then the best thing happened… Jacob came to me excited to spend tomorrow together for his birthday. I reminded him he has school tomorrow and he adamantly informed me his birthday would be a family day just as it has been every year since he was born! And in that moment I realized how right he is and how much we both need the day together. It made me happy that this sweet child realizes that I’ve made sure to take the day off work for his birthday every year. It makes my heart full to know that he wants that tradition to continue.
You would of been 77 today. You would of told us you wanted nothing for your birthday but then been thrilled with the gifts and cake. You would of snuck a second helping over the kitchen sink leaving nothing but crumbs and a frosting covered knife to give you away. I wish you were here. But as you spend your first heavenly birthday please know we are honouring your special day down here too. Nancy got the most beautiful delicious cake and together we ate and said your name. We will always remember your birthday and continue to say your name because you still walk beside us even if we can’t see you. Happy heavenly Birthday Mom 🌹
I have to say my day was leaps and bounds better then I expected it was going to be! I’ve sort of been blah about my birthday for the past few weeks because of the covid quarantine situation. But my friends and family really surprised me today!! For that I’m thankful!
My morning started out with lots of love and treats from my boys! Then a knock on the door to discover my best friend had brought over gifts and my favourite cake! Thanks to her I got to enjoy lunch time cake and a social visit in the driveway with my parents!
Later in the day another friend delivered the most beautiful floral bouquet to me!
In the afternoon Kevin took me for a drive to get out of the house and found a road side flower stand and I got to pick out more flowers!
These little gesture where so uplifting! I felt very loved all day! It was a great birthday and I’m very thankful for everyone who helped bring me joy!
My only advice to you these days is live your life! Don’t fear failure, if you’ve never failed you’ve never lived.
I turned 31 a few weeks ago. I know, I had to let it sink in for a while myself. But like the song says “In my next thirty years I’m gonna have some fun…I’m gonna do it better in my next thirty years”!!!! My life is nothing like I planned it when I was younger. I’m not a teacher, I’m a nurse. I don’t have children, I have my Muffin. I haven’t been married all that long and I don’t live on a farm or have horses. Life never goes according to plan, at least not for anyone I’ve ever met! Don’t get me wrong I don’t think this is a bad thing. I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and life is only what we make of the series of events we are dealt.
As I reflect back on my life this far many events stand out. I don’t mean life milestones like high school, university graduations, first love, first heart break, etc. of course like anyone I can recall those well. I’m talking about those life moments that at the time may not seemed like a big deal but 5, 10, 15, 20 years later sneak back into your brain and make you realize things. Moments like a kiss on the beach, a glance goodbye in an airport, a hand picked flower, or a few words mumbled in anger. Simple things, the way wine tasted on the patio in the middle of summer. The sting of regret, the overwhelming clarity of realization. All of these things band together to form who I am today. Who I am today is not who I was a week ago, a year ago, 10 years ago. I’ve realized that everyday lived is another chance to be better, to do better.
I’ve had to make some major life choices recently. I had to face things I didn’t expect to face. I had to make choices regarding my health, love, feelings, etc. The one thing I took away from all of these events was that in actuality things in life are going to happen and sometimes you have no control over them. What you do have control over is your reactions and where you go once the event happens.
I’ve decided to just try to be better. Everyday just try to be a better person, make better choices and to enjoy life.