It’s been 179 days since I stood up and walked away from an abusive employer. It’s taken me most of those to stop feeling guilty for leaving the patients and taking care of my own wellbeing.

It’s been 1872 days since the accident that took away the way of life my husband and I knew .

It’s been 1837 days since I’ve become a Mom.

It’s been 37 days since we “settled” with ICBC.

In all those days I haven’t found myself but honestly I haven’t really looked. I haven’t really known where to look or how to look. What I do know is I sort of feel like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel instead of another dark tunnel.

My only thought is “Baby run!” Don’t run away from it run towards it! Run, embrace it. There is no shortcut.

This is the first time in over 5 years that for some reason it feels like I just got a breathe of spring.

Embrace it Erica, better days are here.