Mid October is upon us! It’s pretty quiet around here. We’ve been home Nanaimo for a couple days and are setting back into a routine.
Today I’m Thankful for our cozy home. The renovations have taken much longer than expected but we can see the light at the end of the tunnel! I love how everything has come together and I love how cozy it is! I’ve really enjoyed crafting my own little touches!
Yesterday was the most stunning Fall day!
We started out our day with a long walk around a wildlife/bird sanctuary and capped off our day with a trip to the beach for ice cream!
I’m thankful that Jacob got some quality time with his grandparents/family on the island this week and that he got to enjoy being outside in the autumn sunshine!
Sometimes it’s easy to get caught up in our to do lists but it’s also important to just hit pause and take a week to just breathe.
September is my favourite! Fall is my true seasonal love. The air gets a little crisp, the pumpkins start to appear everywhere and things just slow down. The leaves show us how spectacular change can be!! I know that most people feel spring is the season of renewal but I honestly feel Fall is a season of renewal as well. Fall is a stark reminder that nothing new can blossom without allowing ourselves to slow down, embrace the change and allow ourselves to be rejuvenated.
I’m so thankful for all fall offers! The colors, the slow down, quiet nights, cozy weekends, Thanksgiving, halloween and pumpkins!!
This week Jacob harvested the last of the pumpkins from the garden with grandpa and it was honestly a little bitter sweet. I honestly think this will be my parents last Fall in that house and it just hurts my heart a little. So I was so grateful to watch Jacob and him harvest those beautiful pumpkins we all lovingly tended to all summer. 🎃
Happy Thursday friends!
Today was a good day! We went out and did some shopping, got fresh flowers and Kevin made a delicious dinner. I’m thankful that we feel safe enough to venture out to do normal life activities like groceries! I mean we follow all the precautions and plan out our outings but it’s nice to just feel a bit normal!
Oh and I’m thankful my hair does not look horrible after I decided to cut it off myself!!!
I’m thankful for this space! I’m thankful to have a space to just write and let my feelings out as needed ❤️
Pay attention to your surroundings because secrets are most often hidden in plain sight.
Sometimes I create these wild scenarios in my head. Scenarios to explain why something is happening or not happening. More often then not when something is bothering me with someone or a situation I’ve had the argument or conversation in my head multiple times before we get around to laying the cards on the table. By the time you realize I’m angry I’ve already surpassed the point of simple recovery. I use to think I might be legitimately crazy but with age comes wisdom. Now at 38 years old I realize that I am one of those people who feel things viscerally. I can’t let things go until I’ve gone over every version of the situation a number of times. Break it into a million pieces and put it back together just so.
Do your shattered, jagged edges cut through everything? Through everyday or do they glisten in the sunshine as you try to figure out how to navigate a world where we’re all a little broken and jagged?
My imperfections are not inadequacies, they are my truths. They are what makes me who I am. You can try to make sense of these things but all you will ever do is base me on you. The version of me you have created doesn’t actually exist. That person is simply an outcome of the pieces of me you want to take. The events you want to remember. The conversations both spoken and not that you have glued together with your feelings and your thoughts. This is the only way we really know anyone.
Sweet friend, Norman bates said it best “It’s not like my mother is a maniac or a raving thing. She just goes a little mad sometimes. We all go a little mad sometimes.”
Hello September 🍂
What a wild ride 2020 has been so far! This week has been a tough one for me personally. After an awesome adventure with my little family I found it tough to settle back into the day to day and harder yet to face the reality of dealing with our new normal. I’m really doing my best through all of this to find a bit of calm but when weeks like this hit it’s tough.
So this week I’m beyond grateful for a few friends who take the time to check in. For friends who ask questions to be sure I’m truly ok. Friends who pick up the phone and call me or send a text! Friends who don’t have an agenda! Friends who care enough to ask why we came home early from our trip. Friends who take the time to listen when I need to vent about how hard the current situation I’m facing with aging parents truly is. Friends who are true and real!
So thank you to those friends! Thank you for the unguarded love. Thank you for the mutual respect. Thank you for being you.
I’m so very thankful for these little smiles!!
It’s been exactly one year since I walked away from my job with an employer who didn’t value me as a employee but worse he didn’t value you me as a human being. Finding the courage to walk away from a well paying job when I was the sole provider for my little family was one of the hardest and most terrifying things I had ever done!!! But you know what? It was the best decisions I ever made. My well-being and my mental health, my actual health, my sanity all proved more important than a paycheque. Finding my self worth and myself again has been a journey. But as I sit here in this little cabin, looking at the moon reflecting on the lake I’ve never been more sure of something in my life!!
Take care of yourself! Your whole self! Don’t put up with people who treat you like you’re worth less than they are! Don’t put up with people who think they own you because they sign your paycheque. Treat others with respect and don’t tolerate those who don’t treat you the same. Love the ones who love you. Find your people and hold on!
Everything will work out even if the first step terrifies you!
Life With The McGavins 