We had a Pre-Christmas family night last night. This little gift has been wrapped since mid November and Jacob has been stewing about when to open it! Last night was his decision! We skipped the pizza plan and ordered White spot take out and then ripped open the gift and built our LEGO wreath!! We capped off the evening with a new Christmas book!! It was such a fun way to spend the evening together!! This brought me joy! For that I’m thankful 🎄🎄🎄🎅🏻🎅🏻🦌⛄️❄️
Grab a drink (I’ve got iced Christmas tea mixed with diet ginger ale and it’s pure heaven) and pull up a seat! Let’s talk! Real talk! 2020 has been a really tough year on many levels for most people! I’ve continued to try my best to practice gratitude and offer my assistance to others in need in ways that work for my little family. But I’m going to be honest with you all… I’ve had my moments & struggled. I’ve had my moments of frustration , irritation, fear, sadness, anger, pretty much every emotion! Thankfully for me I’ve got an amazing husband to fall back on for support, a house full of family, and a handful of amazing friends to turn to. I’ve got a whole team of you here on social media ready to interact with me and share some giggles at the click of a post!! I’ve made new online friends through our shared Love of vintage stuff, crafting, love of community, etc.
So to all of you who help break up my day and make me laugh, smile, reflect, learn, etc thank you!! To my new found friends I’m so excited to get to spend time with you when it’s safe!
To all of you getting through this thing day by day and doing your best to follow the rules and show kindness, Thank you!
Yesterdays announcement on Christmas restrictions hit me hard. I held it together over the evening but I literally burst into tears over breakfast this morning. And you know what … that’s ok. It’s ok because the announcement sucked, the realization of what it all means just flat out sucks. There is no sugar coating it! Watching other people skirt the rules or flat out ignore them is straight up maddening. Sometimes it’s hard to not get angry and blame others for this mess.
So this morning I had my cry and I pulled myself together and I’m not going to sit here and spew toxic positivity at you and tell you it was rainbows and butterflies all afternoon because it wasn’t! My mood continued to reflect the weather! Kinda dark and gloomy but progressing through the afternoon. But I will tell you I spent part of the afternoon doing little things to help other people (because acts of service and gift giving are how I express love) and honestly that was the highlight of my day. I got my parents groceries at Ralph’s Farm Market because I truly don’t want them in stores if we can avoid it and I feel very safe doing their shopping at Ralph’s. We dropped off our reverse advent calendar donations (a few days late) to Cloverdale Community Kitchen. I dropped off the tree ornaments a new friend had me make. I generally kept busy!
During my brief out and about today you know what I noticed??? People trying their best to follow distancing protocol. I noticed staff that were welcoming and smiling behind their masks (you can tell) I noticed most people are being kind and doing the best they can to get through this. I noticed kindness despite adversity and fear. I noticed thankfulness from others and then I remembered the quote from the Grinch.. “Maybe Christmas perhaps means a little bit more”. Maybe this year we all need to find a way to make it mean a little bit more. Maybe we can all try to flow through our days with kindness and intention. Maybe we can try to find the good. Share a smile. I’m not saying to suppress the hard feelings but try to find the silver lining. Again I’m not going to throw toxic positivity at you and tell you a list of ways to stay positive. I’m just asking you to make an effort to see something good in each day.
Hell im sure I’ll have another good cry before the week is over but I’m going to try my best to take care of myself, my family, and actively try to look for that silver lining!
Today I cried and felt sad but my silver lining was feeling safe shopping and seeing my parents from the driveway when we dropped off the groceries. Jacob singing jingle bells in the truck! Hearing my Mom cry briefly on the phone then pull herself together and tell me how happy she was to see us today (even if it was only a few minutes from the drive way). Listening to her tell me how much she liked the little chocolate treats she found in the grocery bag! The air hug from 10 feet away when handing off an order to a new friend! Spending a few minutes alone arranging the beautiful flowers I got at the market and finally getting these words out.
We’re all in this together! ❤️
I’m thankful December is here! I’m thankful for the glow of the Christmas lights, our beautiful tree, and the magic that comes along with this time of year!
It’s that time of week again friends! I’ve been busy creating lots the past few months. Christmas signs, decorations and most recently wreaths.
Yesterday we went for a drive and picked up a wreath kit at Floral support. It was so nice to create our wreath cozy at home. Normally I take the wreath class with Surrey parks and rec but obviously due to covid that was a no go!
We had left over wreath supplies so we made a second one and walked in the rain to Grandma and Grandpa’s! We hung it on their door and rang the door bell … they got to visit briefly through the glass. My Mom was so excited to see us then she was in tears as we left. But shortly after returning home she called us and was so happy she got to see Jacob and told me how much she loves her wreath. For that I’m thankful.
Are you listening? Can you hear me?
Mid November and it feels like there is nothing really happening here. It feels like we’re stalled somewhere between Summer and Christmas. Usually this time of year we are just a few miles from the hustle and bustle, the parties, the merry & bright. But right now I think we’re standing on a rug that’s slowly being pulled out from under us. I’m emotionally prepared for the restrictions I think are coming. I’m emotionally preparing for December to look extremely different from years gone by. I’m just holding on.
It’s been a year. 2020 kind of feels like a relationship where one gives everything and the other just takes. The kind where you lose your time, give your love, and wake up with your hands tied and you desperately beg for the other person to untie you and work together to get through the storm. Maybe if you just try to work together and hold on.
My only advice is to keep holding on. Believe that relief from these hard times is coming. Try to overcome the frustration. Try to do the right thing. Just try. That’s all any of us can do!
I’m sure this season of life has got many of us down. I’m sure many of us are angry, frustrated, annoyed! I’m sure many of us want to scream from the rooftops to get people to listen. Even the most positive parts of me are feeling a little lost, hopeless, and probably a little more annoyed then I care to admit. I know I’m not the only one. I know I’m not alone, Just hold on.
That’s all we can do and I’m thankful I’m still here and healthy enough to try to hold on a little longer!
Don’t expect others to always support your choices but do not let their opinions change how you feel about your choices. You will never be able to see yourself through their eyes, so see yourself through your own eyes and don’t waste your time trying to make everyone else happy. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself. Make you happy.
Be supportive not over bearing. Be kind but firm. Tread lightly and love fully.
Remind yourself that everyone gets to make their own choices, their own mistakes, your triumphs are your own. Make your own choices and own them. You don’t have to justify your choices but you have to accept the outcome of your choices.
Life never turns out quite how you thought it should but that doesn’t mean it isn’t exactly how it’s supposed to be.
I’m thankful that I didn’t have to answer the phone this morning. That nothing in me felt the need to justify my choices to a man who treated me so poorly. I’m thankful that those closest to me all had the same reaction when they saw the number on the phone. A reaction somewhere between WTF and anger. I’m thankful that time of my life no longer has any control over me.
Yesterday was the most stunning Fall day!
We started out our day with a long walk around a wildlife/bird sanctuary and capped off our day with a trip to the beach for ice cream!
I’m thankful that Jacob got some quality time with his grandparents/family on the island this week and that he got to enjoy being outside in the autumn sunshine!
Sometimes it’s easy to get caught up in our to do lists but it’s also important to just hit pause and take a week to just breathe.
September is my favourite! Fall is my true seasonal love. The air gets a little crisp, the pumpkins start to appear everywhere and things just slow down. The leaves show us how spectacular change can be!! I know that most people feel spring is the season of renewal but I honestly feel Fall is a season of renewal as well. Fall is a stark reminder that nothing new can blossom without allowing ourselves to slow down, embrace the change and allow ourselves to be rejuvenated.
I’m so thankful for all fall offers! The colors, the slow down, quiet nights, cozy weekends, Thanksgiving, halloween and pumpkins!!
This week Jacob harvested the last of the pumpkins from the garden with grandpa and it was honestly a little bitter sweet. I honestly think this will be my parents last Fall in that house and it just hurts my heart a little. So I was so grateful to watch Jacob and him harvest those beautiful pumpkins we all lovingly tended to all summer. 🎃
Pay attention to your surroundings because secrets are most often hidden in plain sight.
Sometimes I create these wild scenarios in my head. Scenarios to explain why something is happening or not happening. More often then not when something is bothering me with someone or a situation I’ve had the argument or conversation in my head multiple times before we get around to laying the cards on the table. By the time you realize I’m angry I’ve already surpassed the point of simple recovery. I use to think I might be legitimately crazy but with age comes wisdom. Now at 38 years old I realize that I am one of those people who feel things viscerally. I can’t let things go until I’ve gone over every version of the situation a number of times. Break it into a million pieces and put it back together just so.
Do your shattered, jagged edges cut through everything? Through everyday or do they glisten in the sunshine as you try to figure out how to navigate a world where we’re all a little broken and jagged?
My imperfections are not inadequacies, they are my truths. They are what makes me who I am. You can try to make sense of these things but all you will ever do is base me on you. The version of me you have created doesn’t actually exist. That person is simply an outcome of the pieces of me you want to take. The events you want to remember. The conversations both spoken and not that you have glued together with your feelings and your thoughts. This is the only way we really know anyone.
Sweet friend, Norman bates said it best “It’s not like my mother is a maniac or a raving thing. She just goes a little mad sometimes. We all go a little mad sometimes.”