Hi friends! Hope everyone is having a good week. I’m doing well. I’m extremely thankful to report I’ve started going to counselling again! I’ve spoken before about how I truly believe everyone should have a therapist! Someone to talk to and receive feedback and ideas on direction from! Going to therapy after Jacob was born made me realize my own value. It was probably the single best thing I did for myself during that time!
Fast forward to today and honestly the past few months, I’ve noticed my anxiety is much worse and my mental health is foggy at best. I’m increasingly irritable and I truly just don’t feel like my best self. One night a few weeks ago while unable to sleep because I couldn’t shut my brain off I sent an email to a local counselling program and was thrilled to be accepted. I started sessions this past Monday and I’m so grateful to be able to do so.
In full disclosure I should admit that on Monday I seriously considered canceling. Just a mix of nervousness, anxiety, etc. I posted the below statement on Instagram and was absolutely blown away by the number of people who reached out to me in support and with their own stories! Sometimes the internet and the connections with complete strangers is amazing. We really are all in this together and while we all have our own stories and own paths it doesn’t hurt to share our stories. Human connection is so vital to our wellbeing and o think we often forget or avoid it!
Wanna know what a good “resolution” is for 2021?!?! Supporting local and small businesses!
If you’re local and want to have the best sourdough and the best scones I’ve ever tasted check out Sweet little bake shop on Instagram! The double chocolate scones are what chocolate dreams are made of!!! Pure bliss!!
I’m very thankful for the online friendships and support I’ve found in other Mom’s and I love supporting them when we can! The above photos are our order from Sweet little bake shop yesterday and were absolutely delicious!
It’s hard not to be thankful with a paw full of chocolate deliciousness!
I can’t believe it’s been a whole year since I started this weekly post! I truly enjoyed taking time each week to reflect on what brought me joy. It definitely wasn’t an easy year at times but there was some amazing moments.
I’ve tried to think of my absolute favourite moment of 2020 and I can’t narrow it down! Here’s a handful that stick out in no particular order!
I was so thankful to get to do some traveling in BC when the restrictions loosened in the summer!! I discovered a place where my soul feels content and complete.
I absolutely love how our home renovations turned out and I love our new truck despite being very unsure about it in the beginning. I loved feeling safe at home and creating a cozy home.
I’m thankful 2020 is coming to a close and we have a new year ahead of us. But in honesty I can’t say it was that bad of a year for my little family. I acknowledge how hard the restrictions were and my heart hurts for those who experienced loss. Hopefully things improve with the covid situation and everyone has a healthy and prosperous new year!
We had a Pre-Christmas family night last night. This little gift has been wrapped since mid November and Jacob has been stewing about when to open it! Last night was his decision! We skipped the pizza plan and ordered White spot take out and then ripped open the gift and built our LEGO wreath!! We capped off the evening with a new Christmas book!! It was such a fun way to spend the evening together!! This brought me joy! For that I’m thankful 🎄🎄🎄🎅🏻🎅🏻🦌⛄️❄️
It’s that time of week again friends! I’ve been busy creating lots the past few months. Christmas signs, decorations and most recently wreaths.
Yesterday we went for a drive and picked up a wreath kit at Floral support. It was so nice to create our wreath cozy at home. Normally I take the wreath class with Surrey parks and rec but obviously due to covid that was a no go!
We had left over wreath supplies so we made a second one and walked in the rain to Grandma and Grandpa’s! We hung it on their door and rang the door bell … they got to visit briefly through the glass. My Mom was so excited to see us then she was in tears as we left. But shortly after returning home she called us and was so happy she got to see Jacob and told me how much she loves her wreath. For that I’m thankful.
Mid November and it feels like there is nothing really happening here. It feels like we’re stalled somewhere between Summer and Christmas. Usually this time of year we are just a few miles from the hustle and bustle, the parties, the merry & bright. But right now I think we’re standing on a rug that’s slowly being pulled out from under us. I’m emotionally prepared for the restrictions I think are coming. I’m emotionally preparing for December to look extremely different from years gone by. I’m just holding on.
It’s been a year. 2020 kind of feels like a relationship where one gives everything and the other just takes. The kind where you lose your time, give your love, and wake up with your hands tied and you desperately beg for the other person to untie you and work together to get through the storm. Maybe if you just try to work together and hold on.
My only advice is to keep holding on. Believe that relief from these hard times is coming. Try to overcome the frustration. Try to do the right thing. Just try. That’s all any of us can do!
I’m sure this season of life has got many of us down. I’m sure many of us are angry, frustrated, annoyed! I’m sure many of us want to scream from the rooftops to get people to listen. Even the most positive parts of me are feeling a little lost, hopeless, and probably a little more annoyed then I care to admit. I know I’m not the only one. I know I’m not alone, Just hold on.
That’s all we can do and I’m thankful I’m still here and healthy enough to try to hold on a little longer!
Don’t expect others to always support your choices but do not let their opinions change how you feel about your choices. You will never be able to see yourself through their eyes, so see yourself through your own eyes and don’t waste your time trying to make everyone else happy. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself. Make you happy.
Be supportive not over bearing. Be kind but firm. Tread lightly and love fully.
Remind yourself that everyone gets to make their own choices, their own mistakes, your triumphs are your own. Make your own choices and own them. You don’t have to justify your choices but you have to accept the outcome of your choices.
Life never turns out quite how you thought it should but that doesn’t mean it isn’t exactly how it’s supposed to be.
I’m thankful that I didn’t have to answer the phone this morning. That nothing in me felt the need to justify my choices to a man who treated me so poorly. I’m thankful that those closest to me all had the same reaction when they saw the number on the phone. A reaction somewhere between WTF and anger. I’m thankful that time of my life no longer has any control over me.