It just hurts in ways I’m not expecting.

It just hurts in ways I’m not expecting.
A quiet Sunday of grocery shopping, pizza lunch, bike riding, baking, and cuddles!
A perfectly good day and yet I still feel like I’m screaming into the nothingness.
Make some coffee
Light a candle
Pay the bills
Grieve it all one at a time.
Feed the birds
Prep a greek dinner
Sob when the snow starts falling
Make the best of a bad deal
Try to convince yourself that soon it will get better.
You would of been 77 today. You would of told us you wanted nothing for your birthday but then been thrilled with the gifts and cake. You would of snuck a second helping over the kitchen sink leaving nothing but crumbs and a frosting covered knife to give you away. I wish you were here. But as you spend your first heavenly birthday please know we are honouring your special day down here too. Nancy got the most beautiful delicious cake and together we ate and said your name. We will always remember your birthday and continue to say your name because you still walk beside us even if we can’t see you. Happy heavenly Birthday Mom 🌹